shit happens. really, shit just happens at the critic.
life's a bitch, i am a dot.
life's a bitch, c'mon here's my butt.
-Joshua Cao
yesyes, life's a fucking bitch.
Monday, June 30, 2008
life's a bitch, i am a dot.
life's a bitch, c'mon here's my butt.
-Joshua Cao
yesyes, life's a fucking bitch.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
the thing about "us".
apparently, my computer is now resting, so i shan't disturb its sleep and thus i am blogging using my phone. it's not gonna be a long post though, because my life is just too mundane to be posted. lol!
just yesterday, or two days back, i was talking with my eldest sis about some really random stuff, haha. then came to the topic of friends. surprisingly, she told me about how her friends dont appreciate of what she does for them. she never told me about her friends much before, and i was taken aback by her words. nevertheless, the conversation continues. there were too much inspirational stuff that we talked about, and it made me want to share with my readers.
my sister told me about how she went the extra mile for her friends and classmates, but nobody seemingly appreciates what she did. especially in group work, everyone just thinks that they did more than everyone else. it brings me to a point. everyone is blind.
Everyone of us are blinded by ourselves. We always think that our plight is far more worse than others, we always think that we do more work than others, and we always think that we are more important than others. Very few people are able to see what is going on around us, because we are all blinded by ourselves.
all of us wants a someone who is the one for us, but nobody is willing to be the one for others. all of us wants true friends, but none of us is willing to be the true friend for others. the reason being, we're just selfish individuals that sees no mirror. if you get the sees no mirror part, maybe you should know what to do. for those who dont get it, look at the mirror then, and i hope you get what i mean.
all of us wants to be special, just like a black sheep in a herd of white sheeps. yet the more we try, the more we are of a white sheep. but little do we know that, we are all the special black sheep that does any work by giving our fullest. we never need to do special work to make us the black one, but just a normal work with all our effort is enough to make us stand out.
MY MUM CHIDED AT ME BECAUSE OF MY PHONE BILLS. but apparently, i didnt exceed last month. LOL. its due to the overdue bills the month before, so i have the payment due doubled. AND i called 212 minutes for outgoing calls, which cost 30 dollars. so i exceeded this month. AND SHE THOUGHT I WENT ONLINE. being a nice boy, i told her that i actually have something called wifi on my hp (: and i got no more scoldings! :D
i actually talked to my oldest sister about serious matters :O
this must be fun! i'll tell you sometime later HAHA.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
yes, as you know i stood right in front of the school just yesterday. haha!! but i am a good boy, i didnt write about teachers. i'm innocent! i was only standing up there because that case was such an uproar that those who vandalise INSIDE that room will get caught too. apparently, i was the unlucky few to get interrogated. but hey! i'm honest enought to say i did vandalise, unlike some other people who admit in front of his/her friends, but DID NOT own up.
oh yea, i think miss tan's disappointed (well she should be), because she submitted the Courteous Student Award nomination form for me, but i was in such a mess. so i think its gonna get rejected. but i couldn't care more about it anyway, so what if i get that award? the award can get me additional points for my testimonial, but it doesn't help solve some other things.
oh yes, i'm supposed to write up my testimonial for myself (which i find it weird, i mean, i thought people are supposed to give testimonials to others?). FYI, a testimonial is a written declaration certifying to a person's character, conduct, or qualifications, or to the value, excellence, etc., of a thing. in simple words, a written statement of recommendation. apparently, we have to write our own testimonial in contrary. but i suppose its better this way, because we are the ones who know what we did that could be included in the testimonial. haha.
but i ain't bovvered though. LOL.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
sky of love.
woo! new blogskin done. its the same template, but just different picture. AIYAH PPLE LAZY CAN. LOL. but i think its ugly. any comments?
haha, photo thanks to huibo, and the macbook. LOL!
oh weh oh weh oh wah.
oh weh oh weh oh wah ah.
am i dreamin'? am i dreamin'? :D
on on such a high mood that i'm working on the new picture for the blog. but i think its just gonna be oh-so-normal. so yea, nothing much to expect.
Monday, June 23, 2008
i died.
i think it'll be so screwed for me to post the recording that time in this blog. by doing that will permanently scare away all my readers away. nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! i've not heard the recordings yet, BUT i heard its out and selling. AH SHAT. i died the 76th time. shat shat shat shat. i think i'm gonna wrap myself in a thick black blanket and wear dark sunglasses almost imitating Sunako-chan to block away the rays shining from the crowd's eyes.
EW. i think that the recrording was really really bad. i couldnt catch up with the tempo, the thingy sucks here, the thingy sucks there, some sucky stuff here and there AND WTFFFFFF I SMELL DURIAN EW. I THINK DADDY BOUGHT DURIANS AND ITS DRIVING ME NUTS. EW SMELLEH. oh anyway, back to the point, with so many faults, i think its NOT at all good. i think i deserve to go and die. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh T.T
anyway! to reward all of you or continuing to read my post, i'll show you a hottie! :D
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vandalism
i'm so hungry i can eat an elephant. and i didnt bring my effing ez-link card today. so i bought standard tickets. fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit. i spent too much today, and i feel like dying. how i wish i am rich.
screw english, tommorow's english paper. screeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew it.
oh yes oh yes, i will be standing in front of the quadrangle on wed. why? aiye, because of vandalism. LOL. aiye, i am DEEPLY REMORSEFUL of what i did. aiiiih, LOL. you can sense the sacarsm.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
SCREW YOU ROHAN ONLINE.
basically, the healing starts after i die -.-
p/s: i have no tuition today! :D
Saturday, June 21, 2008
my dad passed me this today! oh my goddd!! i am soooo happy! woots!
oh yea oh yea! :D i'm too happy to do anything right now. thanks kevin!! :DD
to thank you, i'll be glad to do a short advertorial on the EP! :D
Friday, June 20, 2008
there's always this weird guy standing at the mrt station. then everytime i dont know why he's always in the same bus as me. NO MATTER I TAKE 243G, 242, 192, 193, 181. i think he's a stalker! XD and i realised he's actually a neighbour. i think. cause he always goes to my block's lift. BUT he stopped there. super weird. he dont even go upstairs. i think he forgot where he live XD haha, okay that's a random post.
i'm gonna buy assessments later. not for me, for my future students. LOL! THEY SHALL SUFFER IN MY WRATH MWAHAHAHAHAHA.
screw them all, my homework.
i want this shirt, i want that shirt too.
should i buy this chic and loud earpiece, or this wireless bluetooth headphones?
that looks cool, but this looks hot!
oh screw them all.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
"If I were to close my eyes now, I wouldnt be able to see the world. If I were to let go now, I wouldnt be able to see the world. If I were to die now, I wouldnt be able to see the world."
-calling out to love in the centre of the world.
Life is short, but it is the longest thing we know in this world. If you have an hour left in this world, would you complain about having such a short period of time, or would you enjoy every minute of it?
Many of us complained about having too little time for everything, but that is not the case. Each of us are entitled 24 hours a day by God. 8 hours is used for sleep, there are still 16 hours left. 7 hours used for school, there are 9 hours left. Eating lunch and dinner, an hour will do. 8 hours left. 2 hours for revision, 6 hours left. 2 hours for gaming, 4 hours left. 2 hours for chatting, 2 hours left. And the remaining 2 hours are extra time that you can use. Dont forget, saturday and sunday are no-school-days, so you have extra 28 hours in a week. So why complain so much?
If we stop complaining everyday, we could save up an hour or so a day. Why? Because that one hour is spent off by complaining. Many of us find there isnt much time because we dont have the sense of urgency. I used to go to the MacDonald's near our school with my classmates. There often many schoolmates STROLLING there. yes, its almost like you take 1.5 seconds to take one step. SERIOUS, its around that speed. Super slow. And chatting along the way, its gonna takes a hell load of time to reach there.
I dont understand why they STROLL there instead of brisk-walking there. Especially the girlssssssssss. I'm not trying to practise sexism here but the girls really can tahan chatting and VERY SLOWLY STROLLING there la. And some of them are even worse, especially the lower sec and a particular *AHEM*cca which i dont wanna say, THEY BLOCK ENTIRE WALKWAY. ello? its not a walkway that is cemented for YOU.
AIIIH, selfish people. But i aint gonna be bovvered, because I dont eat fast-food nowadays ((: I'm leading the healthy lifestyle! :D seriously, I dont find fast-food THAT appetizing, and they are unhealthy anywayyyy. That's why they are called JUNK FOOD -.- I think in there might be a GREEEEEEEEEEEAT increase in the number of people getting heart attacks in the future since children starts eating fast food from a young age. And as they grow up and continue to eaet fast food, the cholesterol accumulated in their arteries will be murther-farking lots. And they will die faster! yay! (right, why do i sound so happy?)
AIIIH, just saying that our future generation is really going to be reaaaaaaally bad. Why? I'll list down the reasons for you:
TOP TEN REASONS WHY FUTURE GENERATION IS GOING DOWN
1) Population of chao ah lian and chao ah beng increased ten folds.
2) Vulgarities is common now even in Primary 1 children.
3) Sense of fashion getting more disgusting and turn-offish.
4) Childish mindsets observed in secondary school students.
5) Poopulation of twits increased.
6) All the I LOVE YOU FOREVER today and the LET'S BREAK UP the next day.
7) Fastfoods are seen as the favourite food in teenagers.
8) Usage of LOL, OMG, WTF in speeches.
9) Mapling, Rohaning, Auditioning and aiya LAN gaming are hobbies of teenagers.
10) Teenagers prefer staying at home using the computer than going to the beach/town.
see what i mean?
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Embrace love and joy.
Mitsugi Saotome:
If you were all alone in the universe with no one to talk to, no one with which to share the beauty of the stars, to laugh with, to touch, what would be your purpose in life?
It is other life, it is love, which gives your life meaning.
This is harmony.
We must discover the joy of each other, the joy of challenge, the joy of growth.
Embrace joy, forget about sorrow, work towards a new and brighter future.
kiss the rain.
Kiss the rain, by Yiruma (:
If there's a day when you feel lonely all of a sudden, kiss the rain.
If there's a day when your lips feel unloved, kiss the rain.
If there's a day when you feel very sad, kiss the rain.
If there's a day when your body feels empty, kiss the rain.
If there's a day when i'm gone, kiss the rain.
Let the rain fill your body with love, let the rain moisturise your lips, let the rain cuddle you tightly.
For I will turn into the rain of million droplets, so that you wont feel lonely. I will be the rain to wet your lips. I will be the rain to cheer you up. I will be the rain to fill your body with love. I might be gone, but I will be the rain--to love you.
kiss the rain.
p/s: The above statements are made by me with Yiruma's inspirational melody. Please credit me if you're using it thanks -Ryu.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
heard the Touch My Body by Mariah Carey?
and here's Jackie Beat's Version. He's a real drag. LOL!
Jackie Beat, still young and sweet!
Oh yeah (X9)
You know I'm gettin' older and I've gained some weight too
In my imagination I am just 22
I'm way too busy to do Jenny, Weight Watchers too
The fast food is to blame, cholesterol's through the roof
If there's a camera up in here that's takin' photographs of me
Then it's true, that you
Must sign this confidentiality agreement right here tellin' you, what to do
'Cause if you run the pics you got without the use of PhotoShop
I will hunt you down
'Cause baby this is show business, nobody wants the truth
Don't even try it, this is my diet
Retouch my body, stretch me some more
Take off sixty pounds, then take off ten more
Retouch my body, re-size my head
Clean up my skin, please tone down the red
Retouch my body, lipo my thighs
With your computer mouse I'm as big as a house
Retouch my body, remove every curve
I'm goin' to the mall to get a soft serve
Give me a tiny waist because I eat like a slob
Remove a chin or two and how's about a nose job?
Erase under my eyes where it is wrinkled and dark
Your resume says that you worked on Jurrasic Park
If there's a camera up in here that's takin' photographs of me
Then it's true, that you
Must sign this confidentiality agreement in blood or else you, will get sued
Cuz if I end up on Perez, Hilton lookin' like a lez
I will hunt you down
'Cause baby this is show business, nobody wants the truth
Don't even try it, this is my diet
Retouch my body, don't wanna look tragic
So call In-dustrial Light & Magic
Retouch my body, make me look lean
Like fat-ass Oprah on O Magazine
Retouch my body, even out my tits
And make sure that this haute couture size 2 fits
Retouch my body, blur it some more
Come on and give me what I'm payin' you for
Retouch my body
I just want some gummi bears, I refuse to take the stairs
Make me fuckin' young and sweet
Get rid of my celluleet I don't want no photo, boy
I want an oil painting
Retouch my body, don't cause any trouble
I am in denial, don't ya' burst my bubble
Retouch my body, just look at Madonna
In real life she looks like an ancient iguana
Retouch my body, and if you can of course
Try to make me look, like less of a horse
Retouch my body I've no other choice
I only wish you could retouch my voice
Retouch (X???)
Retouch my fuckin' body!
Monday, June 16, 2008
its a great day today! huibo came to my house and updated my phone AND psp!! which means i can finally play Bleach: Heat the Soul 5!! :D
i feel so happy that i'm gonna celebrate with Scoopz Ice-cream sour lemon!
okay bye.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
i have absolutely no idea why i posted the contents in my previous post O.O
but anyway! i'll continue for the sake of my reader, but in short. haha, the codas are more important ;)
Soon after, I learned the way of the hooligans. I smoked, I drink, I swore, I fight. That is when i started to change, the more negative way. I started to swear alot in Secondary 2.
THEN BECAUSE OF SOME SOME REASONS.
I realize that friends are important to me. They are those who stand by you in times when you have family problems, they are those who provide a soft padding to cushion your falls, they are those who make stepping stones in your life. Friends, they really are important, aren't they?
But things don't turn out well though. I have many friends in secondary 2, considering the fact that I am slightly high-profiled in school. The problem with me is that, I dont know how to appreciate them. I took them for granted, and even though my sacarstic remarks to some of them don't really affect them much, there are some of them who took it to heart. I know of someone who used to be my close friend. Maybe I took her for granted, and I always chided at her for being sooooooooo stupid, or maybe make really sacarstic and hurtful remarks at her. We started to talk lesser and lesser. Then, we seem to be even lesser than hi-bye friends.
Along the way to secondary three, I lost many great friends, because I took them for granted and I didnt put myself in their shoes. I dont appreciate them and I lost them. Its hard to get back what I've lost, nevertheless, I try my best to smile at them in school whenever i can, in hope of making things better. We still talk now, but there is no longer strong bonds between us.
Secondary 3 life started. I found a great friend once again! We were together most of the time, and I feel so happy to be with her! Together with the juniors, we often hang out together, eat in mac and stuff. But soon, we decided that spending time with our own classmates is more important. We neglected the juniors. Up till now, I still feel sorry for them. I mean, we just left them there like that without explaining why.
AHHH. 总之, I LOST MANY FRIENDS 就对了啦！
THE MORAL OF THE STORY IS APPRECIATE YOUR FRIENDS OKAY.
LOVE LOVE HUG HUG HAR.
DONT FEEL LIKE BLOGGING ANYMORE KAY BYE.
lol!
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Story of Me.
unknown song. but i like it :D
Life without school is boring, let alone a life without friends.
Maybe its due to my ignorance and my insensitivity, I lost friends. I remember the first day i stepped into the world of my secondary studies, I told myself that i dont need friends. I hated the world, I hated people around me, everyone around me. Maybe its because during that period of time from primary 5 until then, shit happens. It led me to stereotype everyone.
Anger. That was the only thing i felt since primary 5. I could smile, but I dont. I could laugh, but I dont. Only in front of my family members, I smile, I laugh and I joke. But that wasnt really me. Brave front? Nah. A facade to be exact. Because if i do something "out of the norm" in front of my family members, there will definitely be a series of "Why?" "What?" "Who?" "Which?" "Where?" "When?" "How?" bombarded right into my face. I dont like interrogation acted on me, thus I chose to be "not me" to escape from the questions.
Primary School Leaving Examinations
I dare say I did study hard. There was then the NUS High School Admission Test. I've done pretty well, but wasnt chosen into it. Think its dont by balloting. Good thing i wasnt chosen into it, cause I wanted to go to good school by using my PSLE results. I prefer to go on the road most people are taking to go into their desired school.
That day, i went to school to take my results. I was pretty sure I could get fairly good grades, say higher than 245 for the PSLE T-score. Awaiting in the classroom seems more of a torture, and hearts are pulpitating so fast that I could hear mine in my ears. There are people who received it and literally jumped for joy (and I remember it cleary that XueQiang and HuiPeng REALLY jumped up). Many of them are so happy, and got above 240. I began to have confidence, because more than half of the class got higher than 240, and they have A*s in their Report Slip.
"FONG GUO WEI"
I bit my lips. My feet trembled as I walked up slowly. With shaking hands, I took the Report Slip. Eyes widened, eyes welled up with tears. There was dejection. I didnt do as well as I expected. Aiming higher than 245, I scored 237 on the instead. There was a difference of 8 marks. Between me and my dream school, there seemed to be an impenetrable wall. Knowing this fact, I cried.
I felt so inferior from my classmates who relatively scored above 240. Many were able to go into Nan Hua High, some in NUS High, some in RGS, some in Crescent Girls, some in RV--its their dream school. I felt envious. I felt inferior. I felt that I am too lowly for my friends. Gradually, I backed out on the idea of "Friends, the best things in life". That was when I made the mistake by penning down "I dont need friends" deep down in my heart.
Secondary Studies
Well at least I got into the express stream for my current school school, and I'll continue to strive for my O' Levels. I was doing pretty well in secondary one, that is until the Mid-year examinations. I flunked my examinations, and pretty bad scores. There was only an A2 in science, and the rest are Bs, Cs, and Fs. Some people say that I'm good enough to be in the top 10 positions, so why bother?
It matters in my scores, not the positions. In my O' Levels, I am competing with the whole of Singapore, not my class, not my school, its Singapore. And friends, I dont need them. They cant give me good grades, they cant give me top positions for O' Levels in Singapore, so why do I even need them? At least, that's what I thought of that period of time.
I remember myself being an anti-social teenager in secondary one. When people talk to me, I stare at them. I smile, but rarely. I remember myself scolding Sipei, scolding Sinyee, scolding Jinchao, scolding those who piss me off. I was practically anti-ing everyone. And I am flamboyant, which is the worst thing that obstructs you to have friends.
Everyone calls me "sissy" in primary school, in secondary school, and I
hear it so often that I feel uneasy when noone called me "sissy" for a day.
I always know I am, and I accept the fact that I am very very flamboyant,
very "gay", very "sissy".
And I remember there was this point of time, I forgot why I was counting
the number of girls and guys in our class, I think it was for a class
outing. R.B asked me to count the number of girls, so i counted. When I
turned to him and told him, his reply was "Did you remember to count yourself?" and gave a laugh. I blinked my eye and gave a cold laugh. For the rest of the day, I kept quiet.
Then there was another point of time I was talking to some girls, then I
was sitting on a chair. S.T's chair. He came by and said, "Go away la! Dont sit on my chair, later you pass your sissy germs to me!"
Then there is another time I was walking to my classroom, and I.T came to
slap on my back and asked for my name. "Why do I have to tell you my name?", and her reply was "Wah wah! Chao ah gua trying to act cool har? You think I want to know your name meh, sissy boy!"
I put their names as initials cause there is no need to defame my friends. But I'm not trying to defamethem anyway, haha, just stating the truth. Being treated like this in school, and back at home, things arent any better.
That Sentence
The moment I took the Report Book home for secondary Mid-year examinations, the demon possessed his body. Words barraged towards me--words so hurtful that every syllable seemed to cleave my heart. There was this sentence mentioned by him, a sentence that I still can remember till now.
(translated)
"To think that you still want to go for NUS High School, what a joke! You, with these kind of results, want to go to that school?! DREAM ON! You're useless and you're better off dead!"
My immediate reaction was running to the kitchen. Why? There's an open window there. You get what I mean. One of my leg was already over the ledge, then he shouted again "Come back here!" He didnt see it though. Apparently, I didnt jump off for freedom. My legs were so obedient to walk me back. Then he lash out a belt and a 1.3cm thick, and a meter long stick. yes yes, i measured it. The stick raised and then lowered down. I squeezed my eyes tight to brace myself. There was a hot feeling soon after. Double attacks were done, but minutes later, the stick broke, and finally it stopped.
The Aftermath
I know I deserve the beatings, I deserve to be punished for flunking my examinations. Slowly, I accepted the fact that I'm incompetent and worthless, and I should be in hell rather than living on. That is when my self-mutilating habit comes into my life. Throughout the rest of the year, I slit my wrist and dug out flesh from my hands using my fingernails. I indulge myself in cult practices, gore, and hurting my own body.
Even though Mary, Sinyee and I were in rather good terms, I didnt think of them as friends. But deep down, I long to scream out that I need friends, and I believe in friendships. They try to persuade me out of those unhealthy practices, but eveything was in vain. Then, there is this angel sent from heaven.
Ms Olivia Lee, a temporary English teacher. She knew of these stuff, and she didnt persuade me out of it. Then she brought the class to Pastor Kong's "The Spooks Show", but the fact is, she is aiming at me. She want me to turn away from cult practices. She succeeded. I stopped those practices because she introduced me to God, the greatest love of all.
I was glad that she came to me, because if not for her, I would not have believe in love, in friendships and in true happiness. She is the one who does not persuade me out of unhealthy things, but she is the one who made me believe in the light of hope.
Pandora's Box-Greek Mythology
Because man stole the fire that was supposed to be used for her creation, she decided to punish them by opening the enchanted box. All the evil, diseases and illnesses, despair and sorrow were released into the world. Pandora then sealed the box in time to leave something for mankind. What was sealed in the box? It is HOPE. Even though you will experience sorrow and despair, deep inside you, lies HOPE. It is HOPE that brings life to us, to let us see the brighter future, the lighted path in midst of the darkness.
I saw hope, because that angel removed the blindfold from my eyes. She was the reason why I remain optimistic in life, she was the reason why I feel so carefree in life, she was the reason to what I have now. Thank you, Ms Olivia Lee, thank you so much. Thank you..
But soon after, she left this school. I began to be misguided, again.
What exactly happened to me? (: Stay tuned XD
its a long naggy post, i know, but at the end of the next post, there are many many codas to be noted of.
On the next post:
What misguiding did i went through?
What happened after that?
What changed my thoughts on "I dont need friends"?
How did i lose my friends?
you can see how bored i am :D
Friday, June 13, 2008
its sooooooo stupid. who will wear adidas jersey out for shopping. unless that person really has no clothes at all, or the person has no sense of fashion at all.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
random post.
ZOMG! i was surprised when limei and jiayu read my blog! :D woahhhh, p-school mates actually reads my blog!!!!! :DDDD i feeel so high now!! (with a headache though) LOL. ahhhhhhh, i fell asleep yesterday, sorry! :(
but yea anyway, yesterday is tooooooooooo interesting to be noted down. HAHAHA. but i have a headache. shaaaaaaaaaaaaat la. cheap thrills are fun! like super fun!! like ZOMG! nai cha (milk tea)!!! LIKE ZOMG MEE POK!!!! LIKE ZOMGGGGGG BACON WITH SAUSAGE (not-really-cheap-thrill) and definitely strawberries.
you guys must know about durians huh? the "king of fruits". BUT I DONT LIKE. i find it smelly though. anyway! was arguing with brandon ytd night about the fruits. FYI, MANGOSTEEN IS THE QUEEN OF THE FRUITS AND STRAWBERRY IS THE PRINCESS OF THE FRUITS. if you guys dont know, then prolly you didnt had a childhood hor, aiyo so pitiful. *sayang sayang*
really lor! that's why i loooooooooooooove them more than any other fruits! especially strawberries. i hope one day strawberries will fall from the sky together with a chocolate rain. OMIGAD. i'll go crazy lor!! for my wedding, i want a strawberry cake! with more strawberries than the cake. and stacked up like 30 storeys. THEN I CAN EAT ALL I WANT :D
oh yea, i just dont get it. whenever i try to say a supposedly-funny-joke, people dont laugh. and when i make sacarstic remarks/not trying to be funny, people laugh at them like there's no tml. why huh? i dont find them funny leh! i really find them not funny lo! and people say jokes that i dont get it, with exception of adult jokes. LOL! but then again, am i just slow and funny, or is it that my friends dont have any sense of humour, or their English tooooooo goood that i dont get the gist of it? i think that its them who dont have any sense of humour. i dont admit i'm slow. i dont!! >=(
i hope i dont die ):
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
subliminal again.
hello hello. i'm totally screwed at home. anyway! huibo was TRYING to help me update my psp (which obviously failed) and we spent hours looking at Catherine Tate Shows, Teletubbies Porn, subliminal message in children's tv. like totally funny la!! i show you some!!
Subliminal Message 1:
(peeling the banana skin) One skin, two skin, three skin, four skin.
Subliminal Message 2:
Oh hello! We're going to talk about playing today!
Playing with each other jeffrey!
Yes if you've got a special friend you like to play with.
Yesterday, we play with our balls,m, didnt we?
.... play with our friend's ball today.
Yes, we can play with our twangers as well!
Subliminal Message 3:
(when the guys come in with a girl)
We could hear you all banging away!
Banging can be fun!
Yes! And i was well banging off yesterday night with Rotny and Roger!
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Do you want to play with my pipe?
totally speechless.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
i'm going out to moe right now. i'm totally not prepared for the audition, but who cares. i'll just give all in and see what happens (:
Monday, June 9, 2008
i bought my pink top! and green scarf thingy!! but i realised that i need a belt -.- how stupid. but yea anyway, today's a fun day ((:
if you're wondering why i didnt update, that's because its a whole day OUT yesterday. well, i at tuition when huibo called. YEA, THE ONE THAT MADE ME WAIT TILL 3AM LA. 12pm then call me back la, waited for more than 11 hours can. screw you. LOL. but yea anyway yea hi (:
and my sisters ps me. they went bugis with my uncle and future-aunt. WITHOUT ME. but of course, lady luck is always on my side. i went out to vivo with huibo. WHO MADE ME WAIT FOR AN HOUR AT OUTRAM STATION. and what's worse, he wore SKINNIES. its like totally disgusting. as in the skinnies, not him. yea but i shall forgive him since he dont know i have a strong detest for skinnies :D see i so good!
oh yea but anyway, i ate subway for dinner. usually, i would buy a foot-long, with the large meal. but i didnt. cause of some stuff. but anyway, yea hi (: haha! yea i bought a 6-inch-subwaymelt with the regular meal instead. and i cant even finish the cookies and drinks. LIKE TOTALLY, WTHHHHHHH. i can finish the entire meal one lor!! but dunno what happened yesterday anyway. so yea, both of us, the evil us were criticising passerbys. we were saying that many girls are wearing like
i mean, the way you dress simply gives the first impression. if you show off your flat tummy, your slender arms, your skinny thighs and your sexy pubic hair, it just gives the wrong idea to others. almost as if you're a whore. no i mean, you ARE a whore in that way. and sashaying your hips in really seductive fashions is totally aggravating the situation.
and that brings me to a point. sense of fashion is not THAT important. it is the way you dress to potray the RIGHT MESSAGE that is more important. i mean, you dont want any ticko-peh to come to you and ask you how much is a night right? even worse, i dont think you want anyone to ask you if you did wash your belly-button or not. that's gonna be totally embarrasing AND insulting. so yea, dress in the right manner to deliver the right message. and THAT is more important than a good sense of fashion. but most prolly if you have a good sense of fashion, you should deliver right signals to others.
i think that if a person have a good sense of fashion, she will look nice even though she is wrapped up all over like a rice-dumpling. serious! i mean, if you want to look pretty, showing your belly, showing your arms, showing this and that (especially your undies and butt crack) is definitely NOT making you pretty at all.
just yesterday, i saw this cheeena whore. i'm not trying to say that ALL cheeena girls wear like that. its only HER that wears like that. maybe i shall discribe to you. she is young, around 20+ years old. YES SHE HAVE MAKE UP ON HER FACE (and i think girls with make up looks so much uglier than without any makeup). i think her foundation is soooooooooo thick that even an ant will get lost in it la!! and her eye shadows are like GREEN and BLUE, a total whore combination. and it covers the entire eyelid and there are even tinges of eyeshadow on top of her eye brows. YES HER THIN EYEBROWS THAT LOOKS LIKE BRANDON CHAI'S SHAVED OFF EYEBROWS. she does not even seem to have any eyebrows at all la!! oh my gaddddd!!! EW.
her hair was dangling all over her head. just like the chinese ghost shows where the curly hair are entangled together, and it almost seemed that she's being tied by her hair. OH YES. then she wore this suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuper low cut cardigan with a suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuper low cut spaghetti straps. yea, she's showing off her valley of the gods. but since it is super low cut, her bulging assets seem to be screaming "SQUEEZE ME PLEASE!!" in desperation. ew again.
oh yea, she didnt button the cardigan anyway, and the top she is wearing is weirdly cut in a inverted-V at the bottom. that means, the inverted-V is cut from the diaphragm all the way down. and she's totally showing off that brown belly button that obviously shows no signs of washing over the ages. it makes me feel like throwing up my insides. ew again and again.
then came to her hot pants. oh yea, hot pants are those super short pants that is shorter than FBTs, and they are made of the rough rough material. i forgot what its called but anyway yea hi ((: she wore it SOOOOOOOOOOO LOW THAT I SAW SOME FRIGGIN HAIR LA. I EVEN SEE HER G-STRINGS. i'm not saying that i'm a pervert staring at girl's vajayjay for no reason. but its like, a whore standing in front of you, even a normal guy will keep on noticing how the girl dress up. BUT ITS FRIGGIN DISGUSTING LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if you want to wear your pants low, PLEASE WAX YOUR PUBES. and G-strings. i have nothing to say. but your pubes! your pubes! PLEASE WAX ITTTTTTT. ew again and again and again.
then all of a sudden, she turned around, showing her big fat arse to me. i was taken aback. she has big boobs, but she has big butts too. but anyway that's not the main point. HER FUGLY WUGLY BUTT CRACK CAN BE SEEN LA. its almost as if her fugly wugly butt crack is seemingly shouting "FUCK ME, FUCK ME!" in a totally sensual tone. like WTF. i always find butt cracks disgusting. cause its where your shit comes out from! SO STOP SHOWING STAINS OF SHIT ON YOUR ASS CAN. LIKE PLEASE. EW AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN!!!!!
shit, i feel as though this post is like a sex story. nooooooooooooo!! but EW. she's like. a total whore. so girlssssssssssss, plssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. dont dress up like her. you'll get raped some day. and i dont find this attractive at all. not even in the sensual way. that's why its a TOTAL turn-off.
comments allowed and strongly welcome.
comment pls. and girls, maybe you could comment on why some girls dress up like that?
thanks, like totally ((:
comment pls!
Sunday, June 8, 2008
mundane.
its a been boring these days. yesterday's bbq party was rather normal, nothing much happened anyway. with the jrs and the graduated. think i'm like the only sec4 there. but who cares! my sisters are along with me XD but was rather boring though =X
niway, i still have to go to MOE like. shit TUESDAY? ZOMG. forget it, dont think i'm gonna dance. i'll just give shit to them HAHA. the optional "special" skill is yea, OPTIONAL anyway, so who cares! haha!
class outing's next week! :D yay! as in ex-class de classouting. LOL! but i think it will be just another normal outing. cause its only for dinner? at pasta mania? but it'll turn out just fine! (i hope).
HELLO? I ALWAYS WAITED FOR YOUR PHONECALL TILL LATE AT NIGHT. and you always dont/forget to call. so much for saying you'll call back, THANKS.
i'm not angry, i'm just a wee-bit irritated.
Friday, June 6, 2008
xTw1tTi3x
i failed my chemistry for the second time after sec 3. like WOW :D 2nd time fail leh! oh mai gad! haha, expected it. cause i didnt study =P but i aint sad. i know i failed cause i didnt study, haha.
oh yes, went to eat POPEYES today! its like so fattening, and rather ex. oh, btw its just beside the Singapore Flyer. i wanted to eat at the cafe beside Popeyes though. and they actually showed POPEYE THE SAILORMAN'S CARTOON!! LIKE ZOMGZOMGZOMGZOMG! i have not watched that video for ages. reminisces of the past eh ;D
and then i have to go down to bugis to redeem a router and adapter, and spent half and hour finding out where the hell Bur******* Mall is. okay i forgot the name, but its the mall just beside Sim Lim Square. like WTH, i dont even go Sim Lim Square la, so how the hell shall i even know. and you should know that Singapore MRT Maps are NOT foolproof. FOOLproof.
I SAW CHRISTINE AT BOONLAY MRT STATION ON THE WAY BACK HOME!! the minute she saw me, she did THAT again. here's the re-enactment of what she did (in words la duh -.-)
Christine: *eyes widened*
Christine: *points at me suddenly*
Christine: "GUOWEI!! YOU!!"
Me: *tries to cover face and whispers* oh my god...
Christine: Come! *dragged me to a pillar*
Christine: *fumbles over some stuff*
Christine: Here we're having a donation for the spastic children association of singapore.
Me: *whips out wallet and donated $5*
Christine: OH MY GOD OH MY GOD. You're like my favourite student! Here take these!
Christine: *shoves a Packet drink and a Packet of snacks into my hands*
Christine: *smiles*
Me: *chuckles*
ZOMG. she always points at people and shout at other's name. seriously cute XD
*points*
GUOWEI!!
but it feels rather embarassing, like a siao zha bor screaming around. LOL!! but rather fun to be with! like zomg zomg zomg, i cant believe i saw ms cutie chua. oh mai gaddddddd!!!! whoops, christine chua ((:
was talking to huibo yesterday night. haha, thanks dude! ;D AND YEA, thanks to him, i know what the hell is p/s. but then again, why do people love usign postscripts everywhere? isnt postscript supposed to be used on letters letter that has already been concluded and signed by the writer? isnt it any addition or supplement, as one appended by a writer to a book to supply further information? okay in simple terms, postscripts are notes that are appended at the end of a letter after the writer's signature.
and for those people who dont know the meaning of p/s, please stop using it everywhere. e.g. friendster, facebook and yada yada yada.
and YES. REALLY, I MUST SHIT ABOUT THIS. I HATE BEES. you know its so irritating to see people typing:
HIIEZ! mYz n4m3zx ishz f0Ng gU0 w3I! niIc3z tuuz mE3t euUz w0Rzzzzzxxzxx!!
LIKE ZOMFGWTFHBBQ SAUCE, please STOP twitting! "worzxzxz", "euuzxZX", "hiiex" are super turn-off. i have the strong detest for twits. seriously, and the i spent like dunno how many minutes typing the above RED SENTENCE. just one sentence, requires like minutes and minutes, how do you even type la! and seriously, i hate people in msn using really really LOADS AND LOADS OF EMOTIONS. it doesnt make you cool, it doesnt make you cute, so stop it okay? i always close windows of people who twit and have dozens of emotions and types like that:
mY n4m3 ish f0Ng gU0 w3I
super, difficult to read, and irritating. i dont even feel like reading. and your friendster profiles, you can just forget about writing like that. nobody will feel like reading it anyway. so STOP typing weirdly okay ((:
i realised something about profiles. girls and some ah bengs
sixteen years old.
clementi town secondary [/weird typing]
!Luurves <3
#moi kors
#moi jies
#moi meis
#moi ah gong
#moi ah mah
#moi papa and mama
#moi maid
#moi cat moi dog moi moi moi all your shit la.
!HATEZ
~b4CkstAbB3rz
~p3oPle who dont like me
~people who sabo me
~people who this and that this and that -.-
(this is especially for girls)
if euu donch like miiex, den FUCK OFF and press the little red button with the "X" in it.
if your profile's that way, i have to say it seriously seriously is a total turn off. i dont like people decorating their profile with ~~~~####~~~~ or .-~x/*helloiamafuckingtwit*\x~-. like totally -.- it is seriously SO NOT ATTRACTIVE and SO NOT CUTE and SO NOT COOL to the core.
i mean, who in the world like backstabbers, and whoever that sabotages others? its a common sense to know that people wont like those who dont like them! and for your information, the "LITTLE RED BUTTON WITH THE "X" IN IT" is called the "close window" button. XD puns intended!
but yea, anyway, i just want to point out that there are stuff which you think is cool, but so not cool to the majority. you can go celebrate the "coolness" of your mind privately, cause if you flaunt them in the public, you'll probablly make yourself a laughing stock. and you dont want that to happen to you, do you? XP
but yea anyway bye.
Thursday, June 5, 2008
i have not choreographed my dance for the audition yet. ARGH. and i have not even found my music. and currently, justin is my music provider. THANKS :D
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
COCKROACH.
ahhhh. i had a dream again! with my future partner, in a dim lit restaurant, sipping away a shot of chardonnay. so romantic huh!! :D ohoh, talking about wine, i do wanna try lindauer. though its cheap one, but many said lindauer is nice!
haha, i wanna be rich. then i can try allllllllllllllll the wine and cocktails in the world :OOOOOOOOOO!!!! and of course, get a macbook :) i've been searching for places with good food lately. haha! i have to satisfy my tummy somedays ya know. its not about being fat, its about enjoying the beauty of food... LOL!!
zomg can you friggin believe it?! i actually woke up at 6.30am today to go eat breakfast with li ping :D Macdonald's 2dollar meal is really really really. great savers meal? LOL though it satisfy only a third of my tummy, it beats paying 6bucks for a half-full stomach XD
we decided to camwhore but all the photos turn out to be:
so as you guessed it we gave up -.-
li ping!! :D
friends of PPS. LOL!!
so i reached school really late. cause we totally forgot the time when we were at mac!! sorry teachers! :(
joshua! he's been a nerd shit today. so guai -.-
its mother tongue lesson!! and after we took the listening compre, we were just purely slacking around.
kahyan and her new phone.
audrey!! :D
CHEMISTRY IS SUPER FUN :D cause i saw a dead cockroach. DEAD COCKROACH IN A SOLUTION OF CALCIUM HYDROXIDE. maybe the cockroach wanted to go for a swim, but didnt realise that Ca(OH)2 can actually kill it. LOL!!
p/s: i dont really like cockroaches. but i do like killing them (:
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Futuristic.
i looked up at the skies, and i wondered: How much time do i have left to see this world?
there's no answer to it. nobody knows what is going to happen in our future. will we be married? or will be be single for live? will we graduate from university? or will we drop out of college? there's no telling that things will turn out to be what we expected it. everything in our future is shrouded in a mist, but the least we can do is to cherish everyday and use every minute of it constructively ((:
i took this picture of a block of flats from my window today. i cant help but make random guesses of what it will be like in future. perhaps it'll be demolished and a shopping centre will be built there? or maybe USA will want to donate to us the statue of liberty and it'll be relocated here? or maybe it'll be a research centre for man-made mutations of animals? i dont know, but i am sure over the years, there'll definitely be a change.
then i look up at the dark skies. will it ever look the same again in the future? most prolly not. when i grow up, say in 10years time, perhaps everything would have changed. there might be great flyovers in jurong, or maybe there might be, i dont know, buildings on stilts?
our future is so full of uncertainty (is there such a word?), and especially now, Singapore is undergoing lots of changes. the building of Integrated Resorts, the baby booms, the economical changes, the great rise in the standard of living, the change in everyday lifestyle, the increasing speed of the society--its just too many and fast. I dare say within 5 years time or so, Singapore could be even more developed. Singapore could be chasing up with the very well developed countries like america! and that is certainly great news.
The standard of education might be changed too in order for our future generation to keep up with the current fast-pacing society, especially in Singapore. I think that our primary school education should be packed into 4 years studies, just like our secondary studies. The rest could be kept the same. Cause i was looking back at the primary school syllables this year, from primary 1 to primary 6 (cause i'm going to be a tution teacher soon), there is too little to be learned over 6 years. There is definitely a need to decrease the amount of time taken for the primary schoolers to graduate. Otherwise, they cant keep up.
Singapore, though a small country, is rather well-developed. Though we are rather vulnerable, but we are rich. HAHA, OKAY THAT DOESNT MAKE SENSE ANYWAY XD
i am in need of money right now, so if you guys are kind enough, please set up a SAVE-GOOWEY-FUND please and thank you (:
Konayuki
i love this song! Konayuki, super nice. i'm too lazy to put in the lyrics here, go find yourself. LOL.
http://www.animelyrics.com/jpop/
you can find most lyrics here, with the translations too :D
Monday, June 2, 2008
AIIIIIIIIIIIIIH. HEART BROKEN SIAAAAA. AIIIIIIIIIIIIH.
maybe i shall change my name to: "X1A0 bW0kenhe4rT3d"
as you can see:
AIIIIIIIH. my target actually has a date already. AIIIIIIIH. saddening.
so yea, i'm playing around with the new phone. the 5mp phone.
audrey!
AND WHILE I WAS DOING CWO, I SAW THIS:
ZOMG, A 3B1 STUDENT ACTUALLY STILL PLAY THIS KINDA STUFF. no offence but, it does seems kinda childish =X
this is a blabla random post. yes i know it (:
AIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIH. BOOB. AIIIIIIH. T.T
I'M GONNA SCREAM AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS: WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
Passerby: Shut up!
LOOK AT MY FACE, LOOK AT MY FACE, DO I CARE?
Passerby: No, you have to
LOOK AT MY FACE, LOOK AT MY FACE, ARE YOU TELLING ME TO SHUT UP?
Passerby: Yes, i'm just...
LOOK AT MY FACE, DO YOU THINK I CARE? I AINT A PERSON, I AINT A PERSON, I AINT A PERSON!
Passerby: Wha.. what?? No you...
LOOK AT MY FACE LOOK AT MY FACE, LOOK AT MY FACE.
I
AINT
A
PERSON.
*walks off*
Sunday, June 1, 2008
ah this song is just so nice. i see those memories again when i hear this song. then i began to wonder, do i still love you?
for all that you've done to me, i should detest your presence on the Earth. but no, i dont feel that way. there was more of contentment than sorrow in my heart. well, thanks to you, i understand more about loving someone, and i know to what extent i could do for my lover (:
this might just be the 156732 time i'm posting about me thanking you again and again, but yea. i just see nothing else to blog in here. i mean for the moment XP
i used to think that you are going to be my forever, but i know that will just be absurd to think that way. i'm not sure if i still love you or not, but what i know is that, i only love to reminisce on the memories we shared together, but i dont want them happening again anymore. but i do miss the times we had :D its been months, and i do miss you. but of course, there can never be a future for us.
well well!! i guess its the power of music! this song had almost made it an illusion that the O's over, and we're all gonna leave each other. some of the lucky ones will still be in the same school in future, but the unlucky ones will have to seperate. for me, i guess i'll be the unlucky one. its not really a sad thing, cause there aint much people i'm close to in this school. there's only so few that you can only count using your fingers -.-
but keiko's going SP. so you see, nothing else for me. and i do hope me and keiko can keep in touch. dont wanna lose another close friend. mary too, but i really hope she can balance between love and friends well, so that we can always be close friends. aiya brandon will always be close one la. though we dont meet very very very often, we talk on phones, smsed each other at random times. WHICH I FOUND OUT THAT, i dont usually do that with kusumoto and mary.
but looking at mary's case now, i think that its hard for us to text each other anyway. with a boyfriend around, things are gonna be quite strained. BUT i even sacrificed my image for them lor. just cause they got boyfriend and they will get jealous easily, so i have to sacrifice my image for them, so their boyfriends will not be sooooooooooooo easily jealoused. aiya, you guys wont understand la. LOL.
i dont know who to celebrate my birthday with lor. sian. maybe keiko and mary. but their boyfriend sure tag along, super wet blanket la!! so yea, i thought of asking brandon lor. just the two of us T.T but at least its better than last time.
oh yes! i guess i have not blog about this. i never had more than 4 birthday parties in my life before. as far as i can remember, i had a birthday party when i'm kindergarden, a party in primary 1 and primary 2, and one last year. so yup, i've never eaten my own birthday cakes more than 4 times too. so yup, sounds rather pathetic. but who cares. not really into my own birthday party. i rather go out with my closests and celebrate with them.
you guys might just think why my closest aint my family. i prefer not to answer that. its complicating. but you just have to know that we're a family on the surface. that's all you need to know. dont probe any further, and i'll appreciate it alot ((: but yaya, mary and keiko and brandon knows about it, so dont kachiao them okay. LOL.
i'm gonna have wonderful nightlife after O's. why? get away from home as long as possible. LOL nah just joking, i still need to go back to sleep and eat and get money XD but i really love night life! walking in the streets blasting "Feels like Tonight" by Chris Daughtry, "Written in the Stars" by Westlife; its just so romantic. haha! i'll get a partner at the end of my O's (:
gah. life's crap.